But when you're holding me like this
I'm carelessly lost in your touch
I'm completely defenseless
Baby, it's almost too much
Jessica Andrews - Helplessly, Hopelessly, Recklessly
We lay there side by side, one of her small, warm hands in both of mine. I could feel my heart pounding nearly out of my chest. She was breathing heavily in anticipation. Somehow, we both knew what was about to happen, even though it hadn't been spoken of previously. It was as if our friendship took on momentum of its own.
"So," I said as I finally dared to speak. "Can we be together?" "Yes, I accept" she replied.
Go on and pull me under
Cover me with dreams, yeah
Love me mouth to mouth now
You know I can't resist
'Cause you're the air
That I breathe
Backstreet Boys - Drowning
"Wow, you're an excellent kisser" she said as we continued to drink in our newfound romance. I was pretty amazed by that, as I had never attempted to kiss another in that way, and I certainly didn't have an idea that there were different skill levels involved.
I don't think either of us slept that night, despite the fact that we had classes to attend the next day. As with all relationships, though, things weren't always so rosy for us.
Love breaks your heart
Love takes no less than everything
Love makes it hard
And it fades away so easily
Vanessa Williams And Brian McKnight - Love Is
We were fortunate to be so compattible. Arguments were rare, and most of them were silly in nature. I remember one which had started out as a joke, but wound up with my leaving her dorm room in disgust. I bounded upstairs to my own room, turned on the computer and began arguing with her via Instant Messenger. After almost 30 minutes of senseless banter, we finally realized the absurdity of it, had a good laugh, and all was fine.
Far more time was spent just enjoying each other's presence, and doing nothing in particular. Sleeping in till 2 PM on a cold, rainy Saturday, then waking up just in time to turn on some sports and devour several turkey and cheese sandwiches. Yeah, that was my kind of girl!
At first you didn't mean that much to me
But now I know that you're all I need
The world looks so brand new to me
Now that I found love
Musiq Soulchild - Love
The days became darker as winter rolled in. I was preparing to put the wraps on my five and a half year college career, while she was concerned with surviving the semester at our university. We somehow managed to support one another through those tough times, and rather than pushing us apart, that adversity served to strengthen our bond even more.
Even though there may be times
It seems I'm far away
Never wonder where I am
'Cause I am always by your side
Celine Dion - The Power Of Love
The time had come, sadly, for us to move apart. As I had graduated and hadn't yet obtained a residence in the university area, I was forced to live with my mom in a little town two and a half hours, and a million lightyears, away from my woman. I was able to join her for a Christmas celebration five days before the actual holiday, and we got to bring in 2003 together at someone else's house entirely. This was probably the peak of our entire relationship, a romantic, weeklong getaway from it all.
In my life there's been heartache and pain
I don't know if I can face it again
I can't stop now, I've traveled so far
To change this lonely life
Foreigner - I Want To Know What Love Is
Soon after all of that, our relationship came to an abrupt and painful end, largely due to the series of bad decisions I made in the two months following graduation. Despite this, I was very happy with my first love as she gave me so many different experiences I hadn't had before or since.
All of the songs featured in this piece were given to me on a compilation cd she'd created for me on Christmas. Therefore, they all hold a special place in my heart as the cornerstones that marked the good and bad times of our love affair. Those not included were as follows:
Tamia - Love Me In A Special Way
Brian Adams - Everything I Do I Do It For You
JoDee Mesina - Because You Loved Me
Martina McBride - Valentine
Chicago - You're The Inspiration
So as you can see, the Cd was chock full of beautiful songs.